I had a dream about him last night. Nothing sexual- it was just a dream - it was an irrelevant dream- weird, unusual- but it felt good. Just being in his presence- even in a dream- it just felt good. I miss him so much. I miss sharing things with him- laughing with him- going places with him- I just miss him so much. It always seems this time of year when he comes back into my mind- I wish I could just call him- meet him for a coffee. Anyway I didn't want to wake up this morning- I just wanted to stay there with him in my dream....