NOT A MONKEY!

Isn't that the cutest ever? Ha! Found these on a Prince site and simply had to post it on my blog... too cute.. and no, you fuckers, he does not look like a monkey....

CRUISIN'

So the Three Little Pigs went on a "cruise" today in school- check out the outfits!- they are too funny, such posers!

A DAY IN THE LIFE

March 29: So it was my father's birthday today and I called him to wish him happy birthday and he seemed genuinely excited and happy and surprised that I had called. Maybe he thinks I wouldn't or maybe he was just happy I did - I dunno- I still find myself feeling nothing for him though- other than sympathy some of the time- for what he is going through- but no love feelings you know- it's weird- something I had wanted for almost 30 years now means nothing... That's sad....

March 30: CC still hasn't gotten a job yet- its getting to the point of desperation. He doesn't seem to be worried about it but I am. The lifestyle we were living was good- not great but good enough to get us by and then some- since he's been off work- we are just slipping down into that hole again and its going to screw us for a long time to come and he doesn't even care...


March 31: you know how you wake up in the morning and feel like something is up that day- I mean like there's something you're forgetting? That's how I feel today and I can't figure out why- its driving me nuts.

TAXI RIDE

Taxi Ride

Street lights passing n a blur.
I cannot focus.
I hear nothing.
I’m not listening to you-
I don’t want to small talk.
Let me loose myself in my mind,
Recounting those minutes-
Or was it hours?
Days?
I can smell him still, he lingers on my skin, in my hair-
on my lips.
Don’t want to get there yet-
Slow down.
When I am there it is over
When I get there
I have to pretend that it never happened.
Slow down and let me linger some more,
let me soak it all in.
let me etch it in my mind.
Slow down and let me wrap myself around it
And hold onto it for dear life…

Jenna 2005

UNSAID- My Fav song

"Unsaid"

Not that you're the one

Not to say I'm right

Not to say today

And not to say a thing tonight

But suffice it to say

We're leaving things unsaid

We sing ourselves to sleep

Watching the day lie down instead

And we are leaving some things unsaid

And we are breathing deeper instead

We're both pretty sure

Neither one can tell

We seem difficult

What we got is hard as hell

A hundred thousand words could not quite explain

So I walk you to your car

And we can talk it out in the rain

And we are leaving some things unsaid

And we are breathing deeper instead

And we are leaving some things unsaid

I can sing myself to sleep

No more

Not that you're the one

Not to say I'm right

Not to say today

And not to say a thing tonight

Bubbles in the Blue Sky

Ok so I was trying to be artistic and take some pics of bubbles floating in the sky - but of course by the time I got my camera and started taking pictures the Three Little Pigs decided bubble time was over and I sat by myself trying to blow bubbles and capture them on film at the same time- yeah ok no... didn't work.. anyway we spent a few hours outdoors today after they got home from school and I don't know about them but I am ti-red! They better go to sleep at a normal hour tonight.... They just kill me...

Oh What A Beautiful Day

So today is absolutely gorgeous out! It just gives me this sense of rebirth. I know that sounds cheesy- but it really does make me feel alive again after the long dreary winter. Makes me want to be thin and tanned and energetic. It makes me want to just get in the car and drive with all the windows down and turn my music up real loud. These are the kind of days where I start making my mental list of things I want to accomplish- ok so, I have made those mental lists already a few times this year and planned out this and that and no, haven't gotten on it yet - but I will blame that on the weather getting shitty again and taking that sunny feeling away.

My best friend S called just now, and I instantly feel better whatever the day I am having, the second I hear her voice. I miss her terribly- she lives about an hour away which is not far no, not really, but with the Three Little Pigs, it is hard to just pop over without it being a planned event. I wish she didn't live so far away- especially since she has lived out there since I have been off work- I never had the chance to just pop over for coffee in the middle of the day or meet up at the mall - which sucks, but what can we do.

So these days I am loving the band THE FRAY- they are just so awesome- calming. Anyways - just awesome- Love them!! I advise you to listen to UNSAID by them- my fav- I have probably listened to it about 12 times already today.

I wondered if anyone has read any of these posts yet- Each night I go through and read a dozen or so different blog pages- and I wonder if anyone has read any of mine. Not that I care really- I was just curious...

BOOBY MITTENS !!!!!!!

So instead of using my kid's real names, I instead will use the nick-names I sometimes call them when referring to them or telling a story about them.. So my little pickle as I sometimes call her and who by the way is 4 years old (as are her two brothers) said something today that I will laugh at for days to come..
So there are all ready for school and I am getting myself ready and realize I have left all of my clothes in the dryer- (What? me not put clothes away? Impossible!) Anyway so I run down to the laundry room in bra and undies to get dressed when little Pickle follows me in to have some unwelcome small talk...
So she says "oh mom, your naked"
"Not naked- well not completely- what's up?" I ask as I quickly try to get my jeans on.
"I see your underwear."
"Yeah, I know, I'm trying to get dressed here Pickle"
"I like your (GET READY FOR THIS!) Booby Mittens Mom"
"WHAT? MY WHAT?" And I burst out laughing- BOOBY MITTENS!!
While trying to regain my composure I say: "It's called a bra, Pickle" But somehow I wish she would forever call it Booby Mittens- I hope she forgets what its really called...

So that one is going down in the books- and is truly the funniest thing to date this year - but I know there will be more- BOOBY MITTENS!! CLASSIC!!!!

Just Thinking

So it occurred to me today, (again) that I have no idea what I want to be "when I grow up". I am 34, have a had a successful career pre-babies and now that I am a successful mother and wife (or so I hope), I wondered today what my next step is. Where do I go from here now? I have always thought about becoming a teacher- but am I too old to start that now? Do I have the motivation? Do I have the time? I know lots of people do it- start a new career late in life- but can I? I think I may be too lazy- I dunno..

OK so this picture means absolutely nothing- I didn't even take it- it's a sample form my computer- I just wanted to see if I could do it- and so well, yeah ok I did it- yippee for me- Im such a loser- so big deal, I added a picture aren't I clever? Anyway although the time of my blog probably says 10 ish- it is really 1:59 a.m. and here I am still awake and I don't know why I do this night after night- staying up til all hours doing nothing and everything and anything. .. I don't like to go to sleep yet I hate waking up- isn't that odd... Anyway night night , maybe tomorrow I will have something more productive to say...

Ok So I am doing it- Getting into the newest craze of "Blogging". And I don't even know why- Maybe just to give me something to do each day- not like it has meaning or anything- but I used to write every days, pages and pages of thoughts and observances and feelings- and when I couldn't write I would carry around a hand held tape recorder and tape anything that came to mind - and now here I am 34 years old and stuck in the biggest rut- Maybe this will give me some other purpose- or, cripes I don't even know- I am just going to do it and maybe I will do it often enough to get my mind working again at full speed- get some creativity flowing again - something- anything..