I am having the toughest time holding it together today. I have yelled at my kids unnecessarily. I have a lump in my throat and if I speak, I will surely cry. I hate him today. Yesterday I missed him. Today I hate him for leaving me to deal with all of this. Today I hate him with every ounce of my soul. Today I hate everyone and would willingly switch lives with the next person I see just so I could take a break from the constant thoughts and worries that are swimming in my head. I wish I could shut it off- flick a switch and make it all go away for just a little while, just so I could think or not think- and sleep.
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As hard as it is, you are brave to let yourself feel.
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