SOMETHING IS AMISS

Ok so last Friday CC started a new job- working night shift and might I add, working and driving into work with the same guy he lived with, drank with, did drugs with, cheated on their wives with in Sarnia. Needless to say I am not happy about any of it at all- but I cannot control him- I am not his mother and I cannot make his decisions for him. I lectured him last week after he went to a meeting and didn't come home until 2 a.m. and all the while didn't answer his cell or anything- I told him this was it- I reminded him I had already let him go in so many ways that this time, there would be no second guessing on my part- this time- he would be gone and that would be the end of it- I told him- this was his last chance with me and the kids one more fuck up- just one time and it will all be over- no more- no way- no how. So anyway he starts last Friday at this job and I already know in my heart it is not a good thing- too many temptations- being with the same people he used to do drugs with working nights- none of it is good- but he assures me it's all good- he can handle it- nothing's going to happen. So at this point I have no proof- but I have had this bad feeling all day today- just all these little things combined have got me wondering - I got up at 7 today - this kids had school- and when I woke up there he was lying awake- I said "have you not been to bed yet" no he says- he says he can't sleep- he had a coffee on the way home and now he can't fall asleep. So ok, I get that- it happens- but then as I am getting the kids' breakfast I notice that everything I packed for lunch for him is in the fridge- everything. Now for the past few nights he has had me make him all sorts of stuff- they get a lot of breaks at work and he finds himself hungrier during the night- so fine, I pack him a shit load of stuff for lunch- and he ate none of it- nothing.- So the not sleeping business and the non-eating is telling me something is not right- I am going to give him another hour to sleep and then we are going to have a nice chat about all of this. Oh yes my friend, we will talk... so I thought I would just write about it and see if my intuition is still working or if I am just having a trust issue again... but will he even admit it? that remains to be seen.....